First day of school, Form 5, 2010, was today.

My honest thoughts for today: I know I can survive the year but I wonder how I'm gonna do it.
I can go to school day by day and do my job as a student, but will I be happy?

Class is just... so different from what I know.
Last year 4S1 was already quite difficult to 'handle', but I had my girlfriends with me.
This year my gang is all over in the next class.
Teacher rearranged our seats so I need to make new friends now (duh), which is always I good thing.

I'm scared about my uncertain future in this class but God put me there for a reason.
My mom tells me to...

Bloom where you are planted...

That's what I'm gonna try to do.
Life what's we make it, so let's make it rock!

I wish I had known that Pulau Mamutik had rampaging sandflies that live and attack stealthily on the beaches. Because I went, I thought I conquered, I got the suntan that I wanted... and more.

=(

And now I suffer from a mild case of sun burn and also a raging allergy to sandfly bites.
So others will just have crazy itches and little dots on their skin, whereas I, the poor victim who has had sensitive skin and a weak immune system since birth, carries around at least a million bites all over my body.

They're red, swollen and just plain nasty. :(
Even the doctor was like 'Whoa!'.
And so I'm taking antihistamines... for frickin sandfly bites!!!!

Sigh.
Sigh.
Sigh.
Sigh.
Sigh.

Happy New Year.

31st December 2009

Usually when the New Year is approaching, say, in 20 seconds, everyone gets all hyped and prepares for the countdown.

If you're like me, then usually there's a whole range of emotions flooding your head when the countdown from 10 starts.

It slowly goes down... each few digits are always shouted louder and louder. There's always excitement with countdowns... being it for New Year's, a bomb explosion, a rocket launching or whatever.

But with transitions from one year to the next I always feel super overwhelmed, just thinking that what you once knew as 'today', 'last week' or 'this year' is officially in the past and labeled as 'last year'.

The funny thing is that nobody would really know that a whole year has passed and a new one has taken its place. It's an unwritten transition, a change that we only know because we humans have arranged time in 366/365 days.

If you think about it, the change from 31st December to 1st January is just the setting of the same sun and the rising of the same moon... and when morning comes, it's just another day.
New Year's would just be an ordinary thing, a silent passing of time except for the cracks and booms of fireworks along with the jovial yells of people.

There's nothing written in the sky that a new year has arrived except for the lights of fireworks.

But it's the way things are, and therefore something we have to go along with.


And here are my (ever-growing!) New Year's Resolutions in general, simplified form for u guys to see...
1. To keep my relationship with the Lord ever burning bright and passionate.
2. Giving my all in my responsibilities - that means in my studies, in school and in church.
3. To have good...no, awesome relationships with the people around me. Be a good family member and friend!
4. Further develop my interests and 'talents'.
5. To control myself regarding undesired qualities that seem to plague my being.
6. Be healthy.
7. Strive for the P word.

Okay, so I understand that being overachieving will never work efficiently so I guess I should keep my resolutions to a satisfactory and achievable minimum.

2009 has been amazing in more ways than one. Each year brings new changes and experiences(might blog about 2009 ones?) I've already had my own version of 2009 happen.

Who knows what 2010 will be about?

Yesterday; 26th December 2009
My whole family slept in late because... well, we had the opportunity. xD My sister and I had went out to Frenz Cafe for yumcha with friends the night before anyway, until around midnight.
Went to Yoyo at first but by the time we wanted to order THEY HAD RUN OUT OF PEARLS!!! How can Yoyo run out of pearls. On Christmas Day, again! xD
So we detoured to Frenz and had fun there, anyway. Imagine 16 of us hogging the tables outside, chatting and laughing at the top of our voices and trying to solve dumb riddles.

How many meh-mehs jumped over the wall?

Okay, back to Saturday the 26th. Went for a dim sum breakfast at that Chinese place in D-Junction. It was okay...I guess? Parents and sister complained that the food was plain but to me it was alright... Usually I'm the one who complains food isn't salty enough. ><

Um, then we lazed around the house, sis and I had worship practice, and then the whole family headed over to 1Borneo for dinner at New York New York.

I ordered a creamy pasta for the first time in my life! Which is a shocker cuz I'm more of a tomato sauce kinda person. I don't like most cheeses. But I liked my pasta! Dinner was great, and then we met up with some friends and we watched Avatar!

Okay, the poster and picture looks freaky and yes, there are blue, almost naked creatures involved...

BUT THE MOVIE IS SERIOUSLY AWESOME, okay!
Wooohoo man..
It was insanely amazing. The graphics, the cinematography, the storyline, the plot, the concept...
James Cameron and his team... GENIUSES!

I can't remember the last movie that was this creative and original.. gripping and interesting...
I just loved it. Full stop.

I would watch it again, without a doubt.. Wish I could watch it in 3-D!!!
I can't wait to get my hands on the DVD. And watch all the 'Making Of' and etc.
If you haven't watched it, GO!!!!

I don't know if you will read this. I don't know if you'll care. But I care about what you did.

I just found out yesterday. A part of me was shocked, yet another part of me just smirked and went:
I knew it.
I knew you weren't to be trusted.

But you had him under your spell. You said you needed him. You begged him to never leave you. And I think he wouldn't have. At least not the way you did.

Was it all an act, in the end? Some pathetic act and an outpouring of excuses.
He thought you were sincere.
Heck, for a second even I thought so too.

Everything you said as a defense and excuse for your goodbye seemed plausible.
But what just happened, hmm?

I only see girls like you on television. I only hear about girls like you through rumors and gossip.

I can only just watch in amazement at the damage you've done.

Merry Christmas...
I dont know how you can live with what you did.

Haven't been blogging lately.. in fact, I haven't even been online very consistently, which is a very strange thing for a girl in her term holidays.

I actually enjoy my job now... I thought I would hate it but I've embraced it and that's what I've been spending my days with.
And I've also made friends with the staff there, even though I'm the first student to work there.
:)

As much as I don't mind working, the thought of quitting has slowly seeped into my mind...that was after I studied the last page of the calendar for the year 2009; the month of December.
And then it occured to me that in TWO MORE WEEKS I would be stepping into January 2010.

And then it occured to me again, how much I DID NOT accomplish this holiday.
Either I'm a fantastic procrastinator or a very failing overachiever.

This holidays felt kind of empty.

NO YOUTH CAMP. *sobs*
I think without Youth Camp the year is really incomplete and unfulfilled.
But at least we did Christmas Caroling.

And next year....
Form Five.
SPM.
...

Yeah.
I feel like quitting my job so I can fully enjoy this last couple of weeks of freedom before... you know.

What's the hardest part about quitting a job?
When your dad is your boss at work.

I'll be there for you!
And so will all of your friends that care about you.

I've been through it before.
You've also been through it before.
No matter how much you think you won't ever recover, you will...
trust me on this one...no wait, no, TRUST GOD!
Wish I could talk to you now but you're not at home.
=.=

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Started work again, but at another place.
My job is incredibly boring and by no means as exciting and busy as being a waitress at a hip, popular, crowded diner. Heh.
But oh well. I guess it's better than being at home wasting my time on the Internet. I'm so free at work that I finished a book there today! And I still get paid! xD
I feel disappointed with myself because the year is ending and I've been wasting my time, yet again.
But at least I have 'work experience'.

I'm not ready to let 2009 slip away.
Or, more like I'm not ready for 2010.


CHRISTMAS SEASON IS NEAR!!!
I love Christmas. The joy that's in the air is just EXHILARATING!